2011 isn't over, but...
Hey,
Bye bye nursing school!
How about that blog break?
Lots of things have happened since my latest entry.
I'm feeling better now, that's one good thing.
Also, I am now a proud owner of the most cuddly hair balls ever:
Thackary Binx & Alfa Brego
Brego
Binx
I love them so much... They sure are like my babies... When I have to leave, my heart aches... When I'm not with themI miss them... Love love love.
Another big news is that I bought an apartment! I'm finally leaving this dump! Moving date: 11-11-11 Perfect!
I can't wait!
Another news is that I dropped out of nursing school...! Yup, it's true. The decision took a long time to make... but once made, it felt so right.
The hardest thing for me was to leave my class behind... I have made so many new friends and they really made the day, once at school!
But I still hang out with them and the ones that really matter to me are still a part of my life!
Bye bye nursing school!As of right now, I'm looking forward to the move! I'll keep you updated... as best I can :)
Later peeps!
...just forget the world?
We'll do it all
Everything
On our own
We don't need
Anything
Or anyone
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?
I don't quite know
How to say
How I feel
Those three words
Are said too much
They're not enough
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?
Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life
Let's waste time
Chasing cars
Around our heads
I need your grace
To remind me
To find my own
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?
Forget what we’re told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life
All that I am
All that I ever was
Is here in your perfect eyes, they're all I can see
I don't know where
Confused about how as well
Just know that these things will never change for us at all
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?
Everything
On our own
We don't need
Anything
Or anyone
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?
I don't quite know
How to say
How I feel
Those three words
Are said too much
They're not enough
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?
Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life
Let's waste time
Chasing cars
Around our heads
I need your grace
To remind me
To find my own
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?
Forget what we’re told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life
All that I am
All that I ever was
Is here in your perfect eyes, they're all I can see
I don't know where
Confused about how as well
Just know that these things will never change for us at all
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?
Well... Forgetting the world doesn't seem like a bad idea right now... Maybe that would give me a chance to breathe...
...That's kind of what it felt like... I need more.
Damn... I have to get up at 5:30am tomorrow, and I should really be sleeping by now... I hate this.
Long day tomorrow. Long weekend... *sigh*
I need a long vacation.
Insomnia...
This is the part that sucks with working night shifts every now and then... Turning the day up-side-down... I got off work at 6-something am.. I went home to sleep, and I slept until 2-ish pm... And now it's almost 3am, and I can't sleep.
...Yumm...
I've kept myself busy the last couple of hours with Grey's anatomy marathon... I have never seen that show.. just an episode here and there, but that's all.... And now: I'm sold. I love it. McDreamy... hell yeah. McSteamy... Jup. Denny... Need I say more? (Jeffrey D. Morgan IS hot in Grey's, but he's still number one in P.S I love you. Especially with the accent).
Still... SO many thoughts going through my head. I wouldn't know where to begin.
I bet this is another reason for my insomnia. Crap.
I need to start studying for my up coming do-over exam... But I just can't find the motivation to do it... Got some to spare? 27 days to go...
..No stress.
I have a head ache... I know... I probably shouldn't sit by the computer anymore... But it's either this or lie in bed and stare at the ceiling...
Oh well... Might as well..
WHY ME!?
The picture says it all...!
Sure, the sink has been making weird noises the last couple of days, and who knows, it might have been leaking for a couple of days too...
But today it was wet all over the place when I opended under the sink... And after taking everything out... I saw it was leaking in 3 different places...
So I called the caretaker... "He'll get back to you when he has the time".... Uh-huh... It's just leaking water in my apartment... But, fine...!
Later in the evening the sink started making more weird noises and I went out to check, and the sink was filled with sewage water... Just lovely...
Soooo... I called again, the 'on-call' number... And they said someone else was gonna call me back... And they did... And they said someone else (the plummer) was gonna call me back... And I'm still waiting...! Great... Juuuuust great!
I'm supposed to work tonight... and I start in 5 minutes... But thankfully I have the 'on call' tonight until 4am-ish... So I just have to sit here, at home, now... and wait for the damn plummer to call... or show up, preferably.
WHY ME?! Why NOW!??!
Damn, damn damn DAMN!
BAH!
I am lost, I am broken, I am confused.
WHAT the hell is wrong with this world!?!
I think you have all heard about the bomb blast in Oslo and the massacre at Utøya... I don't understand it. I don't even know if I want to understand. It's sick. DISGUSTING.
I used to live in Oslo, in the city centre... I love that city and I miss it...
Thankfully, no one I know has been hurt byt this insanity... But my thoughts and love go out to all of those who HAVE been affected by it.
A friend wrote on his Facebook: "Vi är ni, ni är vi" (We are you, you are us)- SO true! Brothers and sisters in the west. I feel your pain. I share it with you. We are one.
When I woke up this morning... Everything really felt gray... numb... I read more about the attacks... and how the number of dead people had risen from 2 to 80 over night...
I needed to get out of my apartment... I needed to get some air... Get away from all the evil... I needed a break...
And so I started to walk to the store... Only to find, on my way there, a massive car crash in an intersection not too far from where I live... I didn't see it happen (thankfully)... But all the fire trucks and police and paramedics... The sirens, the crashed cars...
I felt like no matter where I went there was some kind of evil. Three people were rushed to the hospital... That's all I know... I just hope they will all be alright...
[We are one]
Princess Grace
This day started of so good, when I got an e-mail from Pauline saying Gracie wanted to talk to me and I could call her cellphone cause she was at Shangilia at that time.
So I called and I got to talk to my princess... I miss her so much more now. My heart is aching for her too... And when she said she misses me, I just wanted to take the next flight out to Kenya and go to her...
...My baby girl...
Night.
What dreams are made of...
It wasn't at all inspiring when the alarm went off at 4am this morning...
I didn't sleep too well... And I had a nightmare... A really weird one.. All I remember clearly is how I rinsed my mouth, and when I spit it out, a bunch of my teeth fell out... Before that I had lost one tooth...
Soooo, D encouraged me to look into dream interpretation... And I did...
These are some of the many answers I found:
"Teeth falling out: Often a sense of loss, such as death of family member or loved one; the ageing process as it relates to maturity, so worries about getting older and one"s changing image. When our first teeth fall out at around seven, it is probably our initial experience of losing something from our body, something weird happening - we might even fear other bits of us could drop off or out. If single tooth: This may suggest loss, change, or death of someone."
"Teeth dreams may also indicate anxiety and insecurities about abandonment. Do any of your close relationships leave you feeling insecure and abandoned?"
Are you anxious about losing the teeth? (In the dream, I was) Any anxiety in dreams generally means there is something in real life that's also causing anxiety. Do you have anxiety about any changes coming up? Are you fearful about making a wrong decision?
"If you find that more than two teeth fall out then you are likely to encounter a serious accident. Make sure that you always remember and check when you're reversing the car or that the road is clear when you walk across."
"Spitting out teeth in dreams symbolizes that you are feeling unstable.
you exert your frustration of instability by spitting out the teeth. it is your dream's way of trying to handle the situation, to get a grip on it so to speak"
you exert your frustration of instability by spitting out the teeth. it is your dream's way of trying to handle the situation, to get a grip on it so to speak"
I've had this dream on my mind all day... it's been bothering me a lot. It was such a disturbing dream... and I ususally don't care... or I forget about them after a while... But this one was different...
Yesterday I ended up watching The emigrants (Utvandrarna) and today I'm watching the sequel (Nybyggarna)... I don't know why... It's been 9 years since I was forced to read The emigrants in school, and they showed the 1st movie... I guess it's one of those movies one just HAVE to watch...!
Today wat work was a pretty good day. I got to ride with D, for once!
But I did get hit in the head with an elbow... Jackass.
A guy came up to us saying he dropped his ticket, probably on the tracks... So, D and I stood outside the train, ON the platform, and I closed the door to see if it was under ste step that's pushed out when the door's open.
And for SOME reason the guy FREAKED and threw himself in between the doors as they were closing... And hit me in the head on his way in...
I opened the doors again and screamed at him.. I mean SERIOUSLY!? Does he think the train is going anywhere with both of the train managers standing on the platform...???
He didn't even apologize... Jerk.
That was one head ache I didn't need.
Later!
I WOULD judge "the book" by its cover...
Just got back from Body Combat... It was Andreas today - Best instructor there is.
Now I'm back home, sitting on my window sill, looking down at the world... Well, okay... Lundavägen...
It's interesting to see people's reactions when they see me sit here... It's like WOW she's SITTING on a WINDOW SILL!... Pointing and laughing... Come on... I don't have a balcony...
....And It's not that weird.
Anyway...
The summer sure is motorcycle season... And the road I live by sure is a motorcycle highway...
Just makes me want to go on a ride ... it makes me want to get a licence and a bike of my own and just go away...
Since I know nothing about motorcycles, I would "judge the book by its cover" and get something like:
Like I said, I know nothing, nooothing about motorcycles... I just think it's cool.
Besides, I would look so hot on it..!
I really should go to bed... I do have to get up at 3:45am.. Joy.
Eh.
Bye.
Ego booth.
Need I say more ?
My damn neighbors thought it was a good idea to start playing loud music at 4:15am... and My alarm was supposed to go off at 5am...
The same neighbors who did this once before, at like 2-3am... also in the middle of the week... Damn it. RESPECT.
I play loud music during the days, but I aways turn it down at around 10pm...
I'm gonna get some sleep before I'm off to Body Combat at A&C.
Bye.
Dreaming away...!
If I could go anywhere I wanted right now... I would first make a stop at Shangilia (children's home in Kenya) and visit my Grace and all the other kids... Then I would go to Fiji... and live in a house, just like in the picture below... That's what I would do. For a while anyway. How awesome would that me?
Bye.
Oh yeah, the American in me wants to wish you all a Happy 4th of July ♥
When my own words aren't enough...
I borrow them from Leona Lewis, who says EVERYTHING I'm feeling in "Breaking into pieces":
Waiting for the key to turn
For your footsteps on the floor
I feel my heartbeat racing
But there’s no one at the door
It’s 3 o’ Clock in the morning
And I don’t know where you are
Do you ever really think of me at all?
Oh, more than words can say
I miss you each day
you’re not around, it’s more than I can take
More than you’ll ever know,
More than I’ll ever show
You’re not around more than I can take
Oh I’m breaking into pieces
‘Cause I know that you’ve moved on
Baby, how I can I go on now,
When all we had is gone?
Oh I’m breaking into pieces
And I’m fallin’ one by one
Will you come back, back to me and then
Put me back together again?
I remember when I met you
For the first time I just knew
You were all I ever wanted
I could feel you through and through
You held me tight and made me wish
This night would never end
Now those memories are all that I have left
Oh, more than words can say
I miss you each day
you’re not around, it’s more than I can take
♥
Back from Turkey and actually celebrated Midsummer last night!
Hello again,
SO! I'm back from a trip to Turkey! I'm more tanned than ever, but it took a lot of effort from me, lying at the beach like that...!
I'm now an owner of "Ray Ban" glasses, a "Chanel" bag, a "Puma" bag, a "Burberry" bag, a "Marc Jacobs" wallet and a bunch of "G-Star Raw" and "Diesel" tee's! ...Etc!
Last night was Midsummer's eve, and I spent it at Johanna and Jimmy's place... Good food and good company! Very nice! I haven't been off work for Midsummer's in YEARS! It was really nice!
Tonight I'm going over to my friend Therese's apartment warming party :)
Only problem is that I don't have a gift since me actually going was kind of a last minute decision... And EVERYTHING is closed today...! I'll figure something out!
I'm also gonna go by my apartment... fetch the mail, if there is any... probably just bills, ,bills and more bills.
What else...?
Umm, I just "found" a new TV show I like, "Switched at birth", same producer that created "Make it or break it" (another fave!)... I recommend it! :)
I need some (easy) breakfast tips!
I've been through a porrige phase... and now I'm going through an egg & bacon phase... Which is really good... But I think I need to vary from day to day...
I just started working out at AC Sport center again, and I absolutely love it! Body Combat ftw!
My entire body is soar today... and I can't help but to love it! Means I did something good yesterday!
But I need to look over my diet... My biggest problem is that I eat too seldom... and lately, too late in the evenings... I hate to eat when I'm not hungry... and it's a problem... Cause I can have been without food for like 5-6 hours, and still not feel hungry...
Oh yeah, and I need to lay off the sugar. Not like I'm a sugar addict or anything... but it's just not good for me.
A chocolate once a month (when it's really needed), will have to make do!
This is it for now!
Out and about over and out!
Good news...No... GREAT news!
My sweetie just went home... I'm sleepin in my apartment tonight, since I have to get up at 3:45am... It's not human, I know... and I don't want him to suffer cause of my crummy work hours!
I have HUMONGOUS-ly great news!!!
I passed the do-over exam!!!! By 1,5 points! Whoop whoop! Whoop Whooop! I friggin' rock!
It feels soooo great! Now I can go to Turkey and relax and have summer vacation with my sisters!
I CAN'T WAIT! :D
Tomorrow I have my last work day before I go: 4.23-9:07 (AM)... It's a good thing it's a short shift... it'll be my 7th workday in a row, and I'm starting to feel the "I'll go crazy if I don't get a day off soon"-ish!
Nighty night!
NEXT STOP TURKEY!!!
Good morning, sunshine!
Good morning peeps!
I'm just about ready to leave for school... Oh, how wonderful it is to start at 12 noon... And since it's the group project, WE decided that time to meet up.
"I am the master of my fate: I am the captain of my soul".
"I am the master of my fate: I am the captain of my soul".
Today summer is back in Malmö... Which is awesome, beyond awesome! But I have to be inside most of the day, with the group, making the last edits on the movie...!
Later in the afternoon I'll meet up with my Connect group... It'll be nice! :)
Hmm, I better get going... I'm gonna go pick up my exam before I meet up with the group!
LOVE!
A long lost hello from the nursing world!
Well, hello!
... Naaah... not really...! :P
Okay, quick update...
I failed the first exam... I did the do-over exam this Saturday... And it sucked... I practiced on 5 old exams.. and they had like FIVE of those questions on the do-over... All the other ones were new... and HARD... and very strangely written... So yah, it sucked... Either I'll get G...or just below (IG - Fail, G - Approved, VG - Very Good) -ish!
Oh, and I JUST found out that I failed the second exam we had...
... And, I have ordered a trip to Turkey with my fellow nurse-sisters.... June 12th-19th...
The do-over exam on that one is on the 18th (of course)... Soooo Now I have to cancel the trip to Turkey... OR change the return date to the 17th... But, I have to say, bring my books and study in Turkey? Not really an exciting thought, eh?
Then again... study here, in Sweden... at home... B-O-R-I-N-G!
My boyfriend won't even be here to kick my ass if I don't study... I KNOW I will have that in Turkey - Eight feet to kick my ass if I'm slacking...!
Decisions...decisions....!
Well, I have sent a request to the SupersaveTravel... or-whatever-they're-called... And hopefully I'll be able to change the return date...
The annoying thing is that I was only 2,5 points from Approved...! (On the 2nd exam that is...)
...And the reason why I want to change/cancel my Turkey trip is becase I don't want to risk having TWO do-over exams in the fall in case I fail on the do-over exam I did this weekend...! I KNOW I won't be able to do BOTH of them close together in the fall... They're too big and complicated...!
ENOUGH written about this boring crap!
Tonight, my boyfriend and I are going to check out some MC-clothes for me! I found an ad on BLOCKET!
The guy sounds really nice, when I talked to him on the phone.. But when he started talking about brands and material... I felt so totally lost...! And decided it's better if my bf is with me... Especially since the guy had all sorts of things... Not just the jacket he posted in the ad...!
I hope that my bf and I will be able to go to Öland over the midsummer weekend... and go up there on his motorcycle! Whoop!
...That's why I need to get me some MC-clothes! :)
Well, this was a teeny tiny update... But this is it for now...
I guess I should go prep for the upcoming do-over exam?
....*sigh*...
