...just forget the world?
We'll do it all
Everything
On our own
We don't need
Anything
Or anyone
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?
I don't quite know
How to say
How I feel
Those three words
Are said too much
They're not enough
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?
Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life
Let's waste time
Chasing cars
Around our heads
I need your grace
To remind me
To find my own
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?
Forget what we’re told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life
All that I am
All that I ever was
Is here in your perfect eyes, they're all I can see
I don't know where
Confused about how as well
Just know that these things will never change for us at all
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?
Everything
On our own
We don't need
Anything
Or anyone
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?
I don't quite know
How to say
How I feel
Those three words
Are said too much
They're not enough
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?
Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life
Let's waste time
Chasing cars
Around our heads
I need your grace
To remind me
To find my own
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?
Forget what we’re told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life
All that I am
All that I ever was
Is here in your perfect eyes, they're all I can see
I don't know where
Confused about how as well
Just know that these things will never change for us at all
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?
Well... Forgetting the world doesn't seem like a bad idea right now... Maybe that would give me a chance to breathe...
...That's kind of what it felt like... I need more.
Damn... I have to get up at 5:30am tomorrow, and I should really be sleeping by now... I hate this.
Long day tomorrow. Long weekend... *sigh*
I need a long vacation.
Insomnia...
This is the part that sucks with working night shifts every now and then... Turning the day up-side-down... I got off work at 6-something am.. I went home to sleep, and I slept until 2-ish pm... And now it's almost 3am, and I can't sleep.
...Yumm...
I've kept myself busy the last couple of hours with Grey's anatomy marathon... I have never seen that show.. just an episode here and there, but that's all.... And now: I'm sold. I love it. McDreamy... hell yeah. McSteamy... Jup. Denny... Need I say more? (Jeffrey D. Morgan IS hot in Grey's, but he's still number one in P.S I love you. Especially with the accent).
Still... SO many thoughts going through my head. I wouldn't know where to begin.
I bet this is another reason for my insomnia. Crap.
I need to start studying for my up coming do-over exam... But I just can't find the motivation to do it... Got some to spare? 27 days to go...
..No stress.
I have a head ache... I know... I probably shouldn't sit by the computer anymore... But it's either this or lie in bed and stare at the ceiling...
Oh well... Might as well..
WHY ME!?
The picture says it all...!
Sure, the sink has been making weird noises the last couple of days, and who knows, it might have been leaking for a couple of days too...
But today it was wet all over the place when I opended under the sink... And after taking everything out... I saw it was leaking in 3 different places...
So I called the caretaker... "He'll get back to you when he has the time".... Uh-huh... It's just leaking water in my apartment... But, fine...!
Later in the evening the sink started making more weird noises and I went out to check, and the sink was filled with sewage water... Just lovely...
Soooo... I called again, the 'on-call' number... And they said someone else was gonna call me back... And they did... And they said someone else (the plummer) was gonna call me back... And I'm still waiting...! Great... Juuuuust great!
I'm supposed to work tonight... and I start in 5 minutes... But thankfully I have the 'on call' tonight until 4am-ish... So I just have to sit here, at home, now... and wait for the damn plummer to call... or show up, preferably.
WHY ME?! Why NOW!??!
Damn, damn damn DAMN!
BAH!
I am lost, I am broken, I am confused.
WHAT the hell is wrong with this world!?!
I think you have all heard about the bomb blast in Oslo and the massacre at Utøya... I don't understand it. I don't even know if I want to understand. It's sick. DISGUSTING.
I used to live in Oslo, in the city centre... I love that city and I miss it...
Thankfully, no one I know has been hurt byt this insanity... But my thoughts and love go out to all of those who HAVE been affected by it.
A friend wrote on his Facebook: "Vi är ni, ni är vi" (We are you, you are us)- SO true! Brothers and sisters in the west. I feel your pain. I share it with you. We are one.
When I woke up this morning... Everything really felt gray... numb... I read more about the attacks... and how the number of dead people had risen from 2 to 80 over night...
I needed to get out of my apartment... I needed to get some air... Get away from all the evil... I needed a break...
And so I started to walk to the store... Only to find, on my way there, a massive car crash in an intersection not too far from where I live... I didn't see it happen (thankfully)... But all the fire trucks and police and paramedics... The sirens, the crashed cars...
I felt like no matter where I went there was some kind of evil. Three people were rushed to the hospital... That's all I know... I just hope they will all be alright...
[We are one]
Princess Grace
This day started of so good, when I got an e-mail from Pauline saying Gracie wanted to talk to me and I could call her cellphone cause she was at Shangilia at that time.
So I called and I got to talk to my princess... I miss her so much more now. My heart is aching for her too... And when she said she misses me, I just wanted to take the next flight out to Kenya and go to her...
...My baby girl...
Night.
What dreams are made of...
It wasn't at all inspiring when the alarm went off at 4am this morning...
I didn't sleep too well... And I had a nightmare... A really weird one.. All I remember clearly is how I rinsed my mouth, and when I spit it out, a bunch of my teeth fell out... Before that I had lost one tooth...
Soooo, D encouraged me to look into dream interpretation... And I did...
These are some of the many answers I found:
"Teeth falling out: Often a sense of loss, such as death of family member or loved one; the ageing process as it relates to maturity, so worries about getting older and one"s changing image. When our first teeth fall out at around seven, it is probably our initial experience of losing something from our body, something weird happening - we might even fear other bits of us could drop off or out. If single tooth: This may suggest loss, change, or death of someone."
"Teeth dreams may also indicate anxiety and insecurities about abandonment. Do any of your close relationships leave you feeling insecure and abandoned?"
Are you anxious about losing the teeth? (In the dream, I was) Any anxiety in dreams generally means there is something in real life that's also causing anxiety. Do you have anxiety about any changes coming up? Are you fearful about making a wrong decision?
"If you find that more than two teeth fall out then you are likely to encounter a serious accident. Make sure that you always remember and check when you're reversing the car or that the road is clear when you walk across."
"Spitting out teeth in dreams symbolizes that you are feeling unstable.
you exert your frustration of instability by spitting out the teeth. it is your dream's way of trying to handle the situation, to get a grip on it so to speak"
you exert your frustration of instability by spitting out the teeth. it is your dream's way of trying to handle the situation, to get a grip on it so to speak"
I've had this dream on my mind all day... it's been bothering me a lot. It was such a disturbing dream... and I ususally don't care... or I forget about them after a while... But this one was different...
Yesterday I ended up watching The emigrants (Utvandrarna) and today I'm watching the sequel (Nybyggarna)... I don't know why... It's been 9 years since I was forced to read The emigrants in school, and they showed the 1st movie... I guess it's one of those movies one just HAVE to watch...!
Today wat work was a pretty good day. I got to ride with D, for once!
But I did get hit in the head with an elbow... Jackass.
A guy came up to us saying he dropped his ticket, probably on the tracks... So, D and I stood outside the train, ON the platform, and I closed the door to see if it was under ste step that's pushed out when the door's open.
And for SOME reason the guy FREAKED and threw himself in between the doors as they were closing... And hit me in the head on his way in...
I opened the doors again and screamed at him.. I mean SERIOUSLY!? Does he think the train is going anywhere with both of the train managers standing on the platform...???
He didn't even apologize... Jerk.
That was one head ache I didn't need.
Later!
I WOULD judge "the book" by its cover...
Just got back from Body Combat... It was Andreas today - Best instructor there is.
Now I'm back home, sitting on my window sill, looking down at the world... Well, okay... Lundavägen...
It's interesting to see people's reactions when they see me sit here... It's like WOW she's SITTING on a WINDOW SILL!... Pointing and laughing... Come on... I don't have a balcony...
....And It's not that weird.
Anyway...
The summer sure is motorcycle season... And the road I live by sure is a motorcycle highway...
Just makes me want to go on a ride ... it makes me want to get a licence and a bike of my own and just go away...
Since I know nothing about motorcycles, I would "judge the book by its cover" and get something like:
Like I said, I know nothing, nooothing about motorcycles... I just think it's cool.
Besides, I would look so hot on it..!
I really should go to bed... I do have to get up at 3:45am.. Joy.
Eh.
Bye.
Ego booth.
Need I say more ?
My damn neighbors thought it was a good idea to start playing loud music at 4:15am... and My alarm was supposed to go off at 5am...
The same neighbors who did this once before, at like 2-3am... also in the middle of the week... Damn it. RESPECT.
I play loud music during the days, but I aways turn it down at around 10pm...
I'm gonna get some sleep before I'm off to Body Combat at A&C.
Bye.
Dreaming away...!
If I could go anywhere I wanted right now... I would first make a stop at Shangilia (children's home in Kenya) and visit my Grace and all the other kids... Then I would go to Fiji... and live in a house, just like in the picture below... That's what I would do. For a while anyway. How awesome would that me?
Bye.
Oh yeah, the American in me wants to wish you all a Happy 4th of July ♥
