Dreaming of Africa.
Well hello there!
I just finished vacuuming the "whole" apartment! JUST as I wrote that I realized that I just have pictures on Facebook of how my place looks, and they are from the realtor, and that was when the place was still clinically white. I will make it my weekend projekt to take pictures of my place!
I'm actually getting ready for bed... Alarm will go off at 4:30am... *yawn*
Just wanted to update a quickie before I turn in.
Had a great afternoon with M! Went to Grafitti Café. I also added one more pretty ring to my collection. I think I might need ring rehab! So many! Can't stop! They're all so pretty!
I'm missing my Africa more and more every day! I think about "my kids" over there so much, wishing I could be with them. The other day I received an e-mail from my friend W. He had scanned a letter from Gladys and a drawing from Gracie. They went straight to the heart. My heart is aching, and I just want to hold Gracie in my arms again. My little princess!
Precious.
Well... I'm gonna go give Brego his medicine, then I'm off to a date with Sandman.
Nighty night folks!
Just another day...
I just took a great picture of Binx and I:
Cute, eh? シHi!
How are you today?
I feel like my world is running in slow motion! MAYBE it's because my alarm went of at 3:45AM this morning... Yawn! This shift today was short and totally OK. But, it was VERY nice to come home and go back to sleep with my kitties! ᵔᴥᵔ
Feel like sharing the love today, so here's another InstaPic of Binxie and I:
Feel like sharing the love today, so here's another InstaPic of Binxie and I:
So sweet! ♡My latest internet addiction was presented to me by my friend A... And since the I have been hooked. SO!
I present to you; Several hours of internet fun:
Just press the logo and you will enter the Imgur realm! ツ (Opens in a new window)
Here is a preview of all the cuteness you can find on Imgur:
Here is a preview of all the cuteness you can find on Imgur:
Puppy husky licks a lime and goes... [Click here to watch]
What else can I entertain you with?
Oh yes, of course! Feel like pressing a big red button?
I don't know what I'm gonna do today. I have a head ache, zero energy, and have to go to bed at 9PM... (Have to get up at around 4:30AM tomorrow
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I took my cat Brego to the vet yesterday since he's been coughing randomly for a while now...
They took some x-rays (thankful he's insured... but I still had to pay 1400 skr!) and now he's on some kind of cortisone pills... They're suspecting asthma... My poor little ball of fur... He's doing SO well when I have to give him the pills though. I lay him on his back in my lap, but some butter on the pill, and just put it in his mouth and he swollows at once. He's such a good cat ♡ ♡ ♡
Darling cat! シ
I JUST received a call from the doctor, and it can now be stated that there is nothing neurologically wrong with me! The EEG, the sleep deprived EEG and the MRI we're all good. Didn't show anything abnormal. *phew*
Now all I gotta do is try to tone down the stress. I think that might be what's eating me up. But at the same time it's not like I can pin-point the stress either. Take today for example; Since I came home I have slept, eaten pancakes and spent time in the couch with my cats... Now updating my blog... So, I can't say that today has been all that stressful... I don't know... I'll have to work on it best I can...
This is enough rambling for now. Take care out there!
Obsession
I have always liked Daim. No, I have always LOVED Daim! Several years back they had Daim mint, of course Limited edition. I tried to look for a picture of that one, but I just found pictures of some Daim Dream... thing? With pear/mint flavour!? Anyone tried it? Any good?
This one, Snax Daim Rocks, is my new obsession. Mmm!
Not to self: Stop eating junk.
What else?
Oh, today my darling Alex made me realize that all I need to focus on right now is going back to Kenya (WITH HER!) and everything will be ok. I've been so blue for a long time now cause of everything that has happened. But just thinking about the fact of going back and share the experience with her made me so happy.
I have been in Kenya in my mind all day. I miss my Africa so much!
I remember one kid, Sammy, he told me about his favorite singer P-Square, and about a song called No one like you. Today I found it on iTunes and bought it for 9 kr! Happy! Listening to is right now!
The first time I met him he told me about 2Face Idibia and the song African Queen, which still warms my heart every time I hear it! ♡ ♡ ♡
>Click here< to listen to P-Square - No one like you (opens in a new window)
>Click here< to listen to 2Face Idibia - African Queen (opens in a new window)
♡ My beautiful Africa ♡
Nakupenda milele!
Gallstones... YOU SUCK!
Well good morning (day) to you all!
So my night sucked big-time!
Well, okay... I did get to see my friend A who has been in Stockholm for the past month, and we watched Source Code (Jake Gyllenhaal - no complaints there!). So! The evening was quite nice... But before he left I started getting cramps under my chest... Took me a while to realize it was gallstones... but thankfully I had medicine at home....
The cramps didn't go away until like 4 am though... So it has been a rough night... (>.<)
Oh what more can I say; Holy hotness!
I am so incredily lucky though, to have such wonderful cats. Unconditional love. Need I say more?
I'm just glad I had the medicine at home... Before I realized it was gallstones I was considering going to the E.R. but I just REALLY didn't want to. I was extremely tired and I have been to the E.R. three times cause of gallstones... The second and third time I told them I believe it is gallstones, and they just told me I'm wrong, I'm way too young to have gallstones. Even though I told then I have had it before.
Anywho.. My cats - the VERY best! Just saying. Can't be said enough! シ
Speaking (writing) of my darling balls of fur... I'm taking Brego to the vet tomorrow... Partly cause I suspect he has some sort of asthma... and he also needs to get vaccination shots.
Sunday. Today is Sunday. I have no plans what so ever, and that feels kinda nice. Until I take a look around my apartment and realize I should use my time today cleaning it. *Boooooriiiiiiing*.
¿ƃuıuɐǝlɔ ʎɐpunS ɹıǝɥʇ puǝds oʇ sʇuɐʍ oɥM
Here's another Instagram picture of mine. Yesterday I rubbed cat-nip on Binx and Brego's pillow... They went LOCO! I love it! Haha! They also went loco for my right hand that was used for rubbing!
Well, this is it for now y'all!
Take care, yo!
(I feel so gangstah!)
Internet shopping.
Yes. It is in fact an addiction. You don't even have to leave the house! Unless it's for picking up the parcel!
So! What did I buy tonight, besides my Lady title?
The following:
A blue flexible nose stud
A purple star shaped nose stud
A black star for my dermal anchor
>Press HERE to enter the website<
Lady Madeleine of Chaol Ghleann
How could I forget!
Today I bought a piece of land at Dunans Castle in Scotland! One square foot to be exact (0,009m²).
Why? To get the Lady title! How cool is that?!
At te same time I am helping to fund the renovation of the castle after a big fire in 2001. So it is also for a good cause, AND it's giving me a reason to visit Scotland for sure!
SO! I will let you know as soon as I get my certificate! (I bought this through Groupon!)
Dunans Castle
Sincerely,
Lady Madeleine
New design - Just temporary though!
Well hello there!
As you can see I have a new design on the blog. I just cooked something up with the best of my abilities. I'm hoping a friend of mine can help me with the layout later on!
This one will have to do for now... I just wanted my old last name removed... ツ
Not too much has happened today. I had to work 5:14-7:45. Lame, I know, but I'm only working 50% at the time. I don't mind. It's nice to take it slow.
After work I had a doctor's appointment. Didn't give me much... Just made me want to change health care facilities even more. I will get around to do it at some point.
My head ache since the sleep-deprived EEG is still gracing me with its presence. It's getting better though.
Oh, and they're making some major staff cuts at work and it totally bums me out... So many wonderful colleagues will have to leave... It's so unfair!
I found out I just made the cut. Of course I am extremely thankful for that, but I can't help but to feel for those who didn't. I just hope they (my employer) will realize they need them - ALL!
This is it for now. I'm gonna rest my eyes from the computer for a bit. Light candles, burn insence and meditate.
Peace to you all! ♡
Oh! Of course I can't leave without sharing a picture of one of my purring balls of fur ツ
Brego and I chillin' in the sofa! ♡
What's going on? What happened? When? Updates!
Yay! I'm back!
I wish I could tell you I had a new trip planned. I don't. Not yet anyway. I'm hoping to go to Kenya in the end of November. But nothing is set in stone yet. We'll see! ツ
Right now I'm sitting at home, even though the weather outside is very nice. I did an EEG test yesterday. A Sleep-deprived EEG test. Since then I've had a terrible head ache. I had to stay awake for 24 hours before taking the test. So I got up at 7:30am on Tuesday and had the test at 7:45am yesterday.
I had to take the test cause they need to rule out epilepsy. I have taken a standard EEG test and an MRI. Both were normal.
Right now I'm all mixed with emotions. On one hand I want to know what's wrong with me. I want an explaination. But on the other hand of course I don't want to find out I have epilepsy!
I am so thankful to have the support of my family and friends, but also so incredible thankful for my feline friends. Dearest Thackary Binx and Alfa Brego, I love them so much. I find myself missing them even though I've just been away from home for a few hours. ♡
What else is there to share? Well, a lot of things really since it's been a while since my last update!
Latest news first!
Last Saturday, September 9th my best friend Johanna had a little baby boy, Enzo! I couldn't be more happy for her and Jimmy and Enzo is just heart breakingly adorable! Judging by this picture he doesn't like "girl cooties" ツ
He is however, my little bundle of joy! ツ ♡ ♡ ♡
Next newest "news" I guess would be all my new piercings! Yes, me be hooked! ツ
I got another one on the tip of my left ear, a tragus piercing, lip piercing and (finally) a dermal anchor piercing next to my left eye! I love them all! And yes, I am getting more piercings done. If I manage to continue updating on a more regular basis, you'll see what's next! ツ
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Of course I can not forget telling you about my friend Hannah, whom I met in Kenya in 2009 and adopted her as my Kenya sister ♡ - SHE GOT MARRIED! ツ
Therefore I now have a brother too! Welcome to the Kenya family Mats! ツ
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There are quite a few things that have occured lately, but I'm not sure if sharing them here on a public blog is the best idea. Maybe it IS the best idea to get it out there. Write about it. Reflect. Process.
I'll think about it.
One thing I just realized... On my header it still says Ayéra. My PREVIOUS last name. Yes! I have changed my last name (again). My given name was Malmquist. Why did I change from that?
Well, I just felt like it actually. There is absolutely nothing wrong with Malmquist, I love it! But I felt like I needed something new, a change. Creating my own last name seemed like a cool idea!
I changed to Ayéra. I loved it at first! I never thought about it sounding very foreign! Seriously, it didn't even cross my mind! But later on I started reacting to the fact that people had problems pronouncing it, people were wondering where I was from, questioning if I was Swedish. I didn't like it, and I just felt like; enough is enough! So, I changed my name. I created a new last name, Melléus. I absolutely love it! People can pronounce it, people have even complimented it! No one question me being Swedish! ツ
I really do feel more comfortable and more like me with my new last name. And I promise you. Last change. EVER! ツ
Now I just need to figure out how the h*ll I made that header. I can't even remember where I have the original picture saved! Ah, well! ツ
Now I just need to figure out how the h*ll I made that header. I can't even remember where I have the original picture saved! Ah, well! ツ
I think this is it for now. Felt good to blog again! I have missed it!
Stay tuned! Hopefully there will be more updates not too long from now! ツ
Take care all of you! ♡
2011 isn't over, but...
Hey,
Bye bye nursing school!
How about that blog break?
Lots of things have happened since my latest entry.
I'm feeling better now, that's one good thing.
Also, I am now a proud owner of the most cuddly hair balls ever:
Thackary Binx & Alfa Brego
Brego
Binx
I love them so much... They sure are like my babies... When I have to leave, my heart aches... When I'm not with themI miss them... Love love love.
Another big news is that I bought an apartment! I'm finally leaving this dump! Moving date: 11-11-11 Perfect!
I can't wait!
Another news is that I dropped out of nursing school...! Yup, it's true. The decision took a long time to make... but once made, it felt so right.
The hardest thing for me was to leave my class behind... I have made so many new friends and they really made the day, once at school!
But I still hang out with them and the ones that really matter to me are still a part of my life!
Bye bye nursing school!As of right now, I'm looking forward to the move! I'll keep you updated... as best I can :)
Later peeps!
...just forget the world?
We'll do it all
Everything
On our own
We don't need
Anything
Or anyone
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?
I don't quite know
How to say
How I feel
Those three words
Are said too much
They're not enough
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?
Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life
Let's waste time
Chasing cars
Around our heads
I need your grace
To remind me
To find my own
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?
Forget what we’re told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life
All that I am
All that I ever was
Is here in your perfect eyes, they're all I can see
I don't know where
Confused about how as well
Just know that these things will never change for us at all
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?
Everything
On our own
We don't need
Anything
Or anyone
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?
I don't quite know
How to say
How I feel
Those three words
Are said too much
They're not enough
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?
Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life
Let's waste time
Chasing cars
Around our heads
I need your grace
To remind me
To find my own
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?
Forget what we’re told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life
All that I am
All that I ever was
Is here in your perfect eyes, they're all I can see
I don't know where
Confused about how as well
Just know that these things will never change for us at all
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?
Well... Forgetting the world doesn't seem like a bad idea right now... Maybe that would give me a chance to breathe...
...That's kind of what it felt like... I need more.
Damn... I have to get up at 5:30am tomorrow, and I should really be sleeping by now... I hate this.
Long day tomorrow. Long weekend... *sigh*
I need a long vacation.
Insomnia...
This is the part that sucks with working night shifts every now and then... Turning the day up-side-down... I got off work at 6-something am.. I went home to sleep, and I slept until 2-ish pm... And now it's almost 3am, and I can't sleep.
...Yumm...
I've kept myself busy the last couple of hours with Grey's anatomy marathon... I have never seen that show.. just an episode here and there, but that's all.... And now: I'm sold. I love it. McDreamy... hell yeah. McSteamy... Jup. Denny... Need I say more? (Jeffrey D. Morgan IS hot in Grey's, but he's still number one in P.S I love you. Especially with the accent).
Still... SO many thoughts going through my head. I wouldn't know where to begin.
I bet this is another reason for my insomnia. Crap.
I need to start studying for my up coming do-over exam... But I just can't find the motivation to do it... Got some to spare? 27 days to go...
..No stress.
I have a head ache... I know... I probably shouldn't sit by the computer anymore... But it's either this or lie in bed and stare at the ceiling...
Oh well... Might as well..
WHY ME!?
The picture says it all...!
Sure, the sink has been making weird noises the last couple of days, and who knows, it might have been leaking for a couple of days too...
But today it was wet all over the place when I opended under the sink... And after taking everything out... I saw it was leaking in 3 different places...
So I called the caretaker... "He'll get back to you when he has the time".... Uh-huh... It's just leaking water in my apartment... But, fine...!
Later in the evening the sink started making more weird noises and I went out to check, and the sink was filled with sewage water... Just lovely...
Soooo... I called again, the 'on-call' number... And they said someone else was gonna call me back... And they did... And they said someone else (the plummer) was gonna call me back... And I'm still waiting...! Great... Juuuuust great!
I'm supposed to work tonight... and I start in 5 minutes... But thankfully I have the 'on call' tonight until 4am-ish... So I just have to sit here, at home, now... and wait for the damn plummer to call... or show up, preferably.
WHY ME?! Why NOW!??!
Damn, damn damn DAMN!
BAH!
I am lost, I am broken, I am confused.
WHAT the hell is wrong with this world!?!
I think you have all heard about the bomb blast in Oslo and the massacre at Utøya... I don't understand it. I don't even know if I want to understand. It's sick. DISGUSTING.
I used to live in Oslo, in the city centre... I love that city and I miss it...
Thankfully, no one I know has been hurt byt this insanity... But my thoughts and love go out to all of those who HAVE been affected by it.
A friend wrote on his Facebook: "Vi är ni, ni är vi" (We are you, you are us)- SO true! Brothers and sisters in the west. I feel your pain. I share it with you. We are one.
When I woke up this morning... Everything really felt gray... numb... I read more about the attacks... and how the number of dead people had risen from 2 to 80 over night...
I needed to get out of my apartment... I needed to get some air... Get away from all the evil... I needed a break...
And so I started to walk to the store... Only to find, on my way there, a massive car crash in an intersection not too far from where I live... I didn't see it happen (thankfully)... But all the fire trucks and police and paramedics... The sirens, the crashed cars...
I felt like no matter where I went there was some kind of evil. Three people were rushed to the hospital... That's all I know... I just hope they will all be alright...
[We are one]
Princess Grace
This day started of so good, when I got an e-mail from Pauline saying Gracie wanted to talk to me and I could call her cellphone cause she was at Shangilia at that time.
So I called and I got to talk to my princess... I miss her so much more now. My heart is aching for her too... And when she said she misses me, I just wanted to take the next flight out to Kenya and go to her...
...My baby girl...
Night.
What dreams are made of...
It wasn't at all inspiring when the alarm went off at 4am this morning...
I didn't sleep too well... And I had a nightmare... A really weird one.. All I remember clearly is how I rinsed my mouth, and when I spit it out, a bunch of my teeth fell out... Before that I had lost one tooth...
Soooo, D encouraged me to look into dream interpretation... And I did...
These are some of the many answers I found:
"Teeth falling out: Often a sense of loss, such as death of family member or loved one; the ageing process as it relates to maturity, so worries about getting older and one"s changing image. When our first teeth fall out at around seven, it is probably our initial experience of losing something from our body, something weird happening - we might even fear other bits of us could drop off or out. If single tooth: This may suggest loss, change, or death of someone."
"Teeth dreams may also indicate anxiety and insecurities about abandonment. Do any of your close relationships leave you feeling insecure and abandoned?"
Are you anxious about losing the teeth? (In the dream, I was) Any anxiety in dreams generally means there is something in real life that's also causing anxiety. Do you have anxiety about any changes coming up? Are you fearful about making a wrong decision?
"If you find that more than two teeth fall out then you are likely to encounter a serious accident. Make sure that you always remember and check when you're reversing the car or that the road is clear when you walk across."
"Spitting out teeth in dreams symbolizes that you are feeling unstable.
you exert your frustration of instability by spitting out the teeth. it is your dream's way of trying to handle the situation, to get a grip on it so to speak"
you exert your frustration of instability by spitting out the teeth. it is your dream's way of trying to handle the situation, to get a grip on it so to speak"
I've had this dream on my mind all day... it's been bothering me a lot. It was such a disturbing dream... and I ususally don't care... or I forget about them after a while... But this one was different...
Yesterday I ended up watching The emigrants (Utvandrarna) and today I'm watching the sequel (Nybyggarna)... I don't know why... It's been 9 years since I was forced to read The emigrants in school, and they showed the 1st movie... I guess it's one of those movies one just HAVE to watch...!
Today wat work was a pretty good day. I got to ride with D, for once!
But I did get hit in the head with an elbow... Jackass.
A guy came up to us saying he dropped his ticket, probably on the tracks... So, D and I stood outside the train, ON the platform, and I closed the door to see if it was under ste step that's pushed out when the door's open.
And for SOME reason the guy FREAKED and threw himself in between the doors as they were closing... And hit me in the head on his way in...
I opened the doors again and screamed at him.. I mean SERIOUSLY!? Does he think the train is going anywhere with both of the train managers standing on the platform...???
He didn't even apologize... Jerk.
That was one head ache I didn't need.
Later!
